I'm not used to this type of attitude; once completing projects religiously I now find that I am unable to concentrate on my work and I am more frustrated than I am confused.
Even my clients have complained about my lacking of mind these days, I feel my career is falling to bits, but that's not what I'm worried about.
I've spent the last ten years building my career and for as long as I can remember I had thought it was my purpose in life, but as I redesign rooms for newlywed couples or for expecting mothers it has gotten me to reflect on myself. It has never bothered me before, I was young and had plenty of time. Now in my thirties I've had my fair share of boyfriends but haven't found anyone I could start a family with and it seems I can't attract those who would. I feel as if now my time is running out, I've been so immersed in my job that I hadn't taken the time to properly consider it. I wonder if it's too late.
No matter where I go there are happy couples roaming around doing nothing but be in the presence of their love.. I'm hoping that this sudden mid-life crisis phase will fade out and I'll stop feeling sorry for myself, but for now it's all I seem to think about.
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